well. there. it's done. this thing that i've been lumbering thru gestation these past 6 months - last night was born - in front of an audience of less than 20. most of which contained my friends, teachers, and their significant others. i couldn't care less.
my musical cues ran with a few hitches. i left a piece of my costuming (my purple kneesocks!!!) lying in the wings and went without 'em. i had a couple moments there onstage where i thought ..... wow. i sure use that word a lot!
my mother sent me roses via my loving husband. my friends looked me straight in the eye and said, "that was awesome! no, really. i'm so glad i came."
their significant others, rather than shuffling their feet and spouting off the traditional niceties, "umm, yeah, good job." chuckled, shook my hand. my one friend's husband compared me to bertold brecht. (ok, well, yes, i'll take a little undeserved flattery, of course.)
my teacher - my mentor - a woman who makes me want to stand up tall and shine - hugged me with tears in her eyes - "i am very proud of you right now."
but... the most amazing thing, perhaps, of it all - for the first time in years, after trudging thru the rigors of academia, bullshit jobs and whatnot, i got another glimpse of this thing - this essence - i remembered - what it feels like - to be doing exactly what you want - what you secretly dream about - and what you have this nagging feeling you were put on the planet to do. it's over - for now - but i still woke up last night - repeating lines from the 21 pages of script - wondering - so where can this go now?????
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